Diary of a Trainee Yoga Teacher: Not being perfect and being nicer to ourselves

Diary of a Trainee Yoga Teacher: Not being perfect and being nicer to ourselves

Just a quick note about practising a little self appreciation and acceptance – mainly just as a reminder to myself and to anyone else who could use it (I’m pretty sure everyone could – whether they realise it or not!).

Throughout life I have chosen activities that require a lot of self criticism study or evaluation – particularly in a physical way, (for example dance and now yoga too) I’m not sure what this says about me or if these things are even related but it’s just something I’ve noticed. Self study has come up during part of the philosophical side of the teacher training I’m currently doing, and we’ve discussed how it can really be a great tool to learn, notice and observe things about yourself.

HOWEVER

I must admit that I’m pretty over critical of myself at times, and today has felt like one of those days. I don’t want to get too into it to be honest, as there’s no point me dredging up negative thoughts I have had about myself and my yoga practice today, as I feel that would give too much recognition to things that probably aren’t even valid. I think it’s important to realise that we could all be a little nicer to ourselves: it’s so easy to be kind and supportive to those around us, especially in the context of this teacher training, so why do we find it so hard to apply the same to ourselves? After all, we spend the most time with ourselves – wouldn’t it be nicer to spend all of your time with someone who is actually nice?!! I wouldn’t choose to have a friend who wasn’t supportive of me, so why wouldn’t I support myself? Anyway, you get the idea – and I’m getting a little rambling now as I’m super tired and ready for sleep!

So I thought I’d just end with a couple of pictures that one of my friends at teacher training took of me today. I had a very specific idea of how I wanted these pictures to turn out (pretty much for the purpose of Instagram), and they don’t look how I would like – but that’s ok. There are so many amazing practitioners sharing pictures of amazing postures and bodies out there and it’s so easy to get caught up in how other amazing other people appear to be, but perhaps it would be useful to look inwards a little more instead of scrolling through endless pages of social media. It’s too easy to see a picture of someone else and expect yourself to fit into the same cookie cutter mould – but everyone’s bodies are different and that is a b-e-a-utiful thing. These pictures are in no way perfect, there’s a lot to work on but just look at how much I’m putting my body through and look how great of a job it’s doing for me. Now to just work on my mind doing as good of a job to support me!

Hope you are all having a great week and next time you go to judge or criticise yourself, just think about all the amazing things your body and mind do for you every day.

Jess

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